jealousy and narcissism

I get so jealous when I see people interacting without me.  I know there are going to be times when the people I love talk to, hang out and spend time with others, I just wish I didn’t know about it.  I wish to exist in this selfish bubble where the connections I have made are more important to you than the connections you have made with other people.  Why am I so jealous?  Because I don’t feel like the connections I have made are deep and meaningful.  I know my connections are superficial, I don’t allow them to become real.  I keep people away from me by not letting them know how I really feel.  I have a terribly judgmental personality, I am always telling someone what I think about what they did, or give my uninvited opinion on something someone has said to me.  I am constantly interrupting you when you speak, because I think I already know what you are going to say.  I know it frustrates you, I just don’t want to listen to all the extra words you are using to make your point.  This sucks, and it is why I maintain my distance.  If you knew the real me, you wouldn’t like it, so I push you away before you can reject me.  It’s all I know