I Told You Now Was Not the Time to Talk!

Now is not the time
There are people downstairs
I need to clean the kitchen and wrap my hair
Before you start driving me crazy tonight
I hate how you say
It's easy for me to run away
Even though I have stayed through all types of pain
My heart does not break anymore
The pieces are too small
A pile of dust where once
There was love and lust but never trust
Now you ask me to try again
Like I didn't try to the same end
Again and again
I cannot win
I want to break the chain I am in
Pick my tail up from between my legs
And find a new life
No longer pretend I think this will ever change
I didn't want it to be this way
I was planning for my wedding day
But his words continue to cut me deep
And the aftermath is always the same
I tell him I am leaving
He tells me he'll change
I say this is your last chance
He undoes my pants
We embrace and erase all the pain - in his mind
But mine still remembers the hurt
And he calls me crazy for opening up again
To let the enemy in