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I guess I am still a little crunk from last night.  Went out to the local bar last night and saw my best friend from high school, I still love the shit out of her.  I go through rough spots with all my friends and I miss them from time to time.  I wish I could bury the hatchet with one in particular, but we are more frenemies than anything else so I will let that one go.  Still, every now-and-then, I get the urge to call her up and ask if we can just squash this beef like Nas and Jay-Z.  But what I forget, is this is not that kind of beef.  It is more like Paris Hilton and Nicole Ritchie. Lauren Conrad and Heidi Montag.  And I still do not know the details of the beef in either of those situations, but I do know, much like my own beef, these females are not having that shit!  Granted I am the Paris/Heidi in this fight, complete with me getting bombed out with her wailing, “You did this to us! You did this!”  Yeah, high drama, but I wasn’t feeling that jazz, so I kept it moving.  Like I said, I think about her every now-and-then but I like my quiet life without her drama, I have to love her from over here.

I smoke to slow myself down

To make the sounds come around

To make the noise feel like down, down, down

I try to hold back the tears that come rushing forth

What are they about?  Why is my thought to cry?

Because I am not pleased with my behavior

The way I behave as if I am unable to control myself

Well look at the plethora of non-accomplishments I have achieved over the years

You should see my college transcripts littered with Ws

I used this method liberally to support my indecisive tendencies

God, I ask for the power to make a decision swiftly and without regret

No more second guessing that has me running around in circles

Two steps forward, three back, to the left, to the right, doubletime…

My mind is going to unwind if I don’t find a way to stop this

That’s that shit right there, that’s that hit right there

No one but me and you can see this thing through. 

Me and Mary Jane, we about to have our last date

I’m feeling like, I need to let her down easy

She might freak out when I tell her I am leaving her

That it has come time to let go of the vision I had for our future together

I realize now that I don’t want to be with her forever

I think I can do better

I KNOW I can do better

I’m not going to let her hold me back anymore

She’s gonna fuss and fight, but she knows I am right.

I will battle back from this, without you

I will make my way down the path

Because it is clear to me

I was meant to be