Father Less

I told tell myself to get over it.
My father was not there my whole life, why trip?
I could grow old and bitter waiting on that ship.
But I just can't forget.

I need a man to trust.
He can keep it real with me if he is my Daddy, right?
But, woe is me.

Whoa, that's me.

I see myself in need and I want to end the need for a Daddy, but I still have that need.
A man in my life, not out to hurt me.
Someone I can believe.
Young me believes I am not worthy, I mean, he left me already, before I had a chance to breathe!
Why would another man on Earth want me???
I let my absent father effect me, in "dramatical" ways you would not believe.
I pray this is not what he would want for me.

It appears that I fear abandonment.
For this reason, rejection, I can't stand it.
I swear this ain't how I planned it.
Blame it on the reign of circumstances.
Though I know why I hurt so much, I know not how to ease this pain.
Pain of predicted rejection, lack of acceptance for myself, projected on to you
and you
and you
This is not about you though, this is about me you see
You could say or do anything, and I would still think...
you
don't
like
me.